A ‘loveless’ love story

“love can be deadly and disturbing” 

Long long ago…the year was 2009, when I actually saw and read the strange story of two people which I’m gona tell you now…Although this post is fictional,it is based on true incidents happened in 2009… It was a winter night and there was a slight drizzle when I sitting in the balcony of my room and watching the  empty road which was very flat and long, very very interestingly..There is only one street light which was flickering down the lane, I could see a person with his sweatshirt on, walking towards a tree on the other side of the road..he did a lot of things like exercise,sleeping,eating I dono why. It was night, the road was empty and this person is acting weird!! This made my interest’s adrenaline pump.So I was taking a close look at his activities.I guess 1hr passed and I saw another person probably a girl,who was walking on the road I could make that as I used a binocular to actually know what is exactly happening..As it was night and the street light didn’t have any interest to support my interest I have to do every possible thing to get to know what is exactly happening there at that tree.

The girl walked past the tree and has nothing to do with the boy in the sweatshirt.I guess the boy was actually waiting  for some one. But  no one met him in the next 2 hrs. All my interest was drowned like a ship of Titanic.The drizzle stopped and  the man started to sleep under that damn tree I don’t know the reason exactly (may be he’s thrown out of his house) . I don’t know when I slept,but I too slept in that very damn chair in the balcony itself. It was half past 4 in the morning I don’t know what woke me up,I woke up and my closing eyes saw something which made them wide open!! The person in that sweat shirt was dragged onto the road and had a shiny yellow  bladed  knife in his stomach and smooth cut of his throat . The grey t-shirt turned red and his pants were really wet with blood. My eyes and me  couldn’t believe the scene and I thought for a sec my binocular was playing games, but the scene was real and the things I said now were actually facts!!

I wasn’t afraid of the scene I dono why . The person in front  of me,lying dead had my sympathy rather than my fear. I thought poor boy and started to look at him closely and this time the street lamp showed interested along with a little sunlight.I really now have a better view of the body than yesterday night. The body was looking pale and his face was low,white and lacked the human charm his body has 3 wounds one was a cut along his throat and his oral cavity was opened through which I could see ants and other insects going into and coming out of the oral cavity.The yellow bladed knife is still shining and has his liver attached to it,I could also see a yellow fluid near that knife along with the liver.It was the bile juice I realized all the anatomy I studied these years was all in front of my eyes.He has blood all over his body. The scene was not so photogenic I thought I could have some photo but I don’t want to as the site was a bit disturbing.

It was 6 am and people began to come out of their houses onto the roads and followed by them was the police people . These people are so frightened to see a dead body lying on the street.May be,some one of them called the police and police made a stylish entrance with their black and red Ford cars…Along with the police came a bunch of people in white costumes,I’d rather call them as people in white uniforms,made some tests collected some things out from the dead body . In the mean time the media people’s population increased exponentially and the number of common people reduced. The media people were yelling and to me this site was a greater horror than the site which I saw in the morning!! it was about two hours I could hear their screams when I was brushing,bathing, having my breakfast and my lunch!! Finally it was 2pm and all the people along with the person in the sweatshirt vanished and gave me some peace…I was asleep for the next 5 hrs it was evening when my dad came with his face confused & puzzled. It was night after my dinner, dad & I sat before the TV as my net internet connection was kept in an coffin buried with my low scores. Like the life time of a person depends on his health,my internet connection’s life depends on my scores at the university.

Dad switched to a news channel which covered the whole of our street crime scene and reported that the convict  responsible for the crime was held by the city police later this evening .Though police denied to give any information about the case,according to the news sources,the convict was a relation to the victim.I was shocked,though I did not know the truth about the story,I believed the news channel report.So I thought how could a person kill his relation? This was very annoying. Dad turned the TV off and went to bed and I did the same thing. I thought if I had any chance to know the truth what has happened,I’ll know it. Although this is a common case and common news to many people around the world.This crime is special to me! It all happened and I’m a witness. So I thought I could go to police a tell what I know,but I have a question flashing…why would the police believe me? I should tell the police or inform police about something the man and I know, and no other person except us.So I went to the police station(first time).It is bit different from what I see in the movies. I went to a police who typing something very fast,and  said him that I have some information regarding the case.The police turned to me and said go to the person their,he’ll take you to the officer handling this case. I had to wait for 3 hours.The police station is a busy place and had all kinds of people coming in and going out(and very very messy).

Finally I met the officer and said him what all I saw that night. The officer had an expression of an actor listening to a film story.When I’m done he took me to the convict,I don’t know why and he has showed me a the convict’s cell, and said he’ll come in 1 hour and asked me to have a look at the convict as he got an phone call (may be he has some urgent appointment) and gave me permission to talk to the convict if I want to..The cell was dark I couldn’t find the face of the convict I could only make the shape of the convict. When the light is on in the corridor of the place,I realized the convict was a girl!! I couldn’t believe the site and asked the in-charge police officer to check for the case number 091143 and confirmed the cell number was the same and she is the convict the police had. I was shocked at the site and was actually tensed as how could a girl do  it. How could she do such a crap ?? Is she related to the man?? Many questions are settled in/on my mind and I started jotting the questions in a rough manner on a paper and when she finally turned to me,the site aroused fear in me though she was very beautiful and had a great smile.

I gathered some courage to ask her about the man(victim) and I said what all I saw, to her for no reason.After listening to me,she said ” I love him and I’m the girl you saw who went past him that night, I didn’t actually kill him,I only made him go free from his sufferings. ” I didn’t understand  what she was actually speaking. I had a face which was blank and cold. She saw me and said “if you wana know the story of what has happened give me the book and pen you are carrying and collect the book tomorrow. I did as she said and went home. Next day after a lot of request and a little bribe the police allowed me to meet her and she didn’t speak anything and gave the book to me I could see the pen and its empty refill in a corner of the cell. I thanked her and had a question why she is doing all this,with that question in mind I came home,kept the book in my shelf and started to have my lunch while the TV was running.

The news channel reported the latest happenings of the case and said that the crime involved a women who was one of the many girl friends of  the victim whose name is Bob. Although the convict claims she is the only girl friend of Bob,the investigation says Bob has 17 girl friends and he has the habit of ‘changing’ his girl friends very often. An interesting fact is, the victim is the convict’s 23rd boy friend. My mind’s blown after watching the entire report of the news channel. I finished my lunch, but I could’t remember what I actually ate.Though I slept I’m only interested to know what happened,why was he killed ? These questions along with many other related questions made me to sit and look at the book in my shelf with a fear,curiosity,interest and horror. Though I don’t wana tell you the reasons for all the above mentioned emotions,I can the share with you, what she wrote in the book  with you. Before I could start to share those things,I recommend you/advice you the below content is only for strong heart-ed people(not for weak heart-ed).

The below is what the convict girl wrote in the book.

The ‘loveless’ love story

We met in the summer of 2008, though many of my friends said he is not a great guy,I didn’t think so…we were everywhere roaming,partying, drinking and most importantly f*ckin. He changed me completely in two months of our relationship. He was such a sweet guy who gave me presents every now and then and surprised me very often. He introduced me to his family and I gathered some courage and introduced him to my family. Though our parents didn’t like our relationship they are not against it. My mom only warned me not to have an sex with Bob,though we did it very often. I love him more than he loves me. We are possessive, obsessed and mad about each other. I don’t think the things we did any couple won’t dare to do any of them. I don’t want to tell you all of those. But I’l tell you one such incident.It was new year 2009 we were partying at a bar,they were many couples that day.we were dancing and drinking suddenly he began to smooch me and we smooched hardly and wildly for a long time (one of my friend said we kissed for 1hour).

Although we love each other,they were many fights,we hurt ed each other mentally and physically as well.This hurting  became very common and our love story became ‘loveless’ love story at one point of time. I never believed in people,and what they say about Bob earlier and now I didn’t believe Bob after listening to people.It was high time I thought and all people around us thought of a break up. Before the day of our break up Bob posted the videos of our sex in a porn site, and also in his facebook profile and tagged our friends in it. This thing shocked me like never before and all people and friends were calling me up . I don’t now whether it is fortunate or unfortunate,my parents were out of the town when all this happened.

I didn’t know what to do. I only cried and cried . I called up Bob,he said he’ll come to my house in 30 min. When I saw him I couldn’t control myself from slapping him. He started to support his act by telling me,”as now all of us know we  did it,our parents do not have any choice or option except they should agree for our marriage. ” I was hurt ed very badly,my family was hurted too and I knew it…I started realizing all the things which appeared good turned suddenly into a hell . I knew I couldn’t do anything now..He got a call and he said he’ll be leaving and left. I’m alone in my house fucked up,crying and didn’t know  what to do.Few days passed, On the night of the murder, I was going to my house when I saw Bob  near a tree waiting for some one..I went to my house as it was night Bob didn’t recognize me. I sat on the terrace of my house and started to observe Bob,at 2am I saw a girl (most probably) came to Bob, and I could see under the street light they made love. I couldn’t control that. So I thought of going to Bob and stop it…  I went to them,he is finger fucking her with a cloth in her mouth.It appears she had orgasms in the mean time. Bob looked at me and I don’t know why he took a knife,he took a knife and tried to pierce me,but I some how managed to keep the knife in his stomach. The girl who got fucked took a knife and slit his throat. I was shocked by her action.

She looked at me and said,”this bastard has made you a hooker. I wanted to kill him as he did the same thing with me too. It is better we leave now”. She dragged him to the road near the tree and made a deep cut in his stomach,near the wound I made and confirmed he is dead by now and left along with her knife. I stared at the dead body of Bob, for minute and tears rolled down my eyes . I was afraid I could get caught,I went to my house. I made Bob,relieve from me(his suffering) . I’m happy now.No regrets.

On the last page of the book she wrote….

I advice you not to fall in love , have sex and mess your life up.

After reading the book, I had no words in my mouth,no thoughts in my mind and everything appeared to be blank for a minute. It was night by the time I finished reading the book my  dad came,I hid the book among-st the text books and went for dinner.My dad switched on the TV and got to the news channel which reported another convict in Bob’s case was held today afternoon and both of them were sent to custody.This case is reported as a open and shut case…as both of the convicts admitted the crime.

Few days later….

I read in the newspaper, both women admitted the crime and were given a ‘death sentence’ .

This is a tale of love, death and disturbance.


relationship complex

Every boy looks for a girl,and every girl looks out for a boy. Now the question is , why is the boy looking for a girl and a girl looking for a boy?

The answer may have several reasons!! There is no exact or precise reasons these days. I think now-a-days a boy is looking for girl(s) and girls are looking out for boy(s). Having a relation with more than person is also now-a-days a ‘common thing’<worst things happening>. This is the basic reason why relations these days are becoming ‘complex’ !!.. and people say after ‘break-up’ SHIT HAPPENs :P

Infact relations these days are very complex!! loving a person and making love with another person is one ‘phenomena’ or you can say is the line of the story of many films. I think movies or films are inspired from the real world. So I guess this is also ‘happening’ . The most happening thing round the world in most or in majority cases is followin love-lust-fuck-forget philosophy and the other is lust-fuck-forget philosophy.

These days analogies are coming into picture between business and relations.

The privacy of a person is lessened due to the fact he/she is in a relationship….I dont whether people know that or not..but have a very good privacy settings for their facebook peofiles,where you can only watch their ‘beautiful skin’

You are in a relationship, it doesnt mean you cant have privacy..if there is something called ‘trust’ between you couple..privacy is a part of life and it is the right of every person to have privacy..

The values are degrading exponentially like the person’s character and his/her relations..It is you who actually decide your relation,I guess no one can force you or have a gun on your ass and say ‘love me’ . So it is you who actually ‘decide’ . If you choose the right way , then things are too good..if you choose the wrong button…aaahh..it is really difficult to actually get out of a relation…

You in a relation doesn’t mean, you f*ck or get f*cked up..it only means the animal or the wild creature wana come to the real world to actually destroy your moral code!!!

A BOY..A GIRL…A LOVE STORY

“This is an article of fiction,any character resemblance with real or dead is purely coincidence”— its vishu

“people who loves themselves can love people around them”– anonymous

I’m a boy…who is an orphan and people around me call me  Judas…I don’t know why….This is my story….and I love myself and I love to be myself….

The days were very dry and sunny… I used to  sleep in the dusty streets of the town…and work for a merchant in the market place…

The town where I live has a solitary feature…The town was a 1234.500 steps away from a place filled  with sand and place where your sweat seems like water… A place where water has priority than boiling blood…..My town is surrounded by these sands…the desert sands….

When I was 18, I still remember me and my merchant were travelling to the neighboring town with his family when my merchant died of the heart stroke…and his family left me behind and went away one night…

I was dying of hunger and was in middle of a deserted place…with bright sun throwing his baby rays filled with the fire on me…I couldn’t move any further,and I was on the burning ground….lying….

the desert sands with the sun blazing

I saw a group of people,coming towards me…and I remember a person with a glass water jar with water in it which was held by his hand and he was  moving towards me tardily…I couldn’t see the face of the person but could feel the sensation of glass jar bang on my head…And after a few seconds… I could see my blood along with the water dry up,very quickly…And after a few more seconds…I lost my conscious….

When I opened my eyes,I was in a place surrounded by snakes of different varieties which were in jars on the shelves…I could also see a scar on top of right eye….in the small piece of glass…I was in pain,so couldn’t come out the bed…

A person came into the room and said ” its time to go from here…Didn’t find any snakes” took his jars and packed things up..and started to move out when I asked him whether he could help me as I was in pain…He sat on his camel and made me sit on his camel and we were travelling….I asked him about the place and where did he found me….and why he was helping me… He replied ” I and you are animals with emotions  and sensibilities, responsibilities, have some paths to follow and should offer help and be kind to other persons in this world “

Tamasha's jars

As we were travelling and traveling…We found some dead horses and people lying next to them with their faces painted in blood…and then saw a girl trying to bury herself….when Tamasha who said that was his name and his father was a magician…slapped her and took her along with us….and tied her hands with great difficulty,as she was punching him on his broad face…

2 days passed and my scar lessened its job and made me a bit comfortable,but  things were not the same as they were 2 days before when the girl started speaking to Tamasha and me…and said about her family… and asked us to stay with her in her village…along with their uncle and aunt..We traveled  to her village,and Tamasha met her uncle and said what had happened on the way…and said to care of me till I was alright and left the place…..

Few days passed…and I was alright and asked her uncle to help me in assigning some for me….He took me to the place where he mines gold and molds them into some shape…and  asked me to help me in the job…and also I was given a room,near the mines which had nothing in it…

I felt very happy as I happened to find  a living and was able to survive the dead blow….

10.2 weeks later…..

It was sand storm which was coming all the way…me,Sekhmat which is the name of the beautiful girl who gave me living  and Aren,his uncle were coming from the mines and we stayed in my room as the sands were flying with great excitement….the doors blew away and the sands rushed into the small room….filled the room…We fought hard for our survival…Sekhmat lost her conscious and I blew air into her to save her and Aren was buried in the sands….The storm subsided,I took Aren and Sekhmat to their house…and helped them,till they recovered…

the sand storm

Aren and I were back to work,and one day I found the beauty lying on the heap of gold near to the mine and the heap was red along with her legs,waist and hands…she was bleeding and was in pain..It was in the night and I could see her face red and her  pain blue under the light of the moon…I took her to my room and wiped her blood with the clothes that I have,made her drink some wine and teared my clothes tied round her wounds and she was still bleeding…she was watching me..with her eyes almost dying….she looked towards the door,which I repaired..and pointed towards a paper which was burnt to an extent…

I took the paper,but was never interested in reading it as the girl was in pain..I took her to a druggist whom I met,and left her there…after reading the piece of paper which said

” Why did you help Judas?? I smashed his head,but he wasn’t dead…give me his blood along with his body or else….Sekhmat….”

During those 10.2 weeks…before the happening of the above….

I was watching her..she was sleeping next to me…looking into me and my eyes…with my hand under her hair..her head on my hand…She asked me..”why is she with me now?” I said “to sleep..” She smiled and wrote something on my chest…and took a mirror and showed it to me…which read ” I want you to live…because I’m in love with you”…I asked her what is the problem…she said her uncle has a friend who wants to kill you..and she also said she was with her uncle,during this conversation…I took her into my arms and kissed her and we were in tears of happiness…

We loved each other,and were happy….I never thought why I have to be killed…I didn’t harm people…

I asked Aren about what Sekhmat told me…and he said “if you want to live,go away from the place or else you will be dead”

The present day…..

 I went to Aren to inform about Sekhmat, he came with me to the druggist saw Sekhmat and with a smile on his face took a knife and made a mark,which was deep not that beautiful but was paining and burning….on my face…..I was in blood,the druggist helped me by cutting the throat Aren,which he did not intend to do… Aren was not a great fighter for his life..lost his life and also his wife..along with his friend…

The druggist helped me to recover and also Sekhmat…

When I and Sekhmat were going to my town,she told me that Aren wanted to kill me and her as her friend’s family was ruined by my merchant and Sekhmat’s father….I guess the person who smashed me with the jar,was the friend of Aren who was ruined by my merchant…

Aren loved himself,his friend and also people round him….ended up in being dead

“love and friendship do not make people, lifeless..they make life worth living “

“killing people doesn’t give you license to heaven….helping people can give you that licence…for the friendship sake..never try to kill people…you never know the people you kill might have a friend like you..to kill you..”-its vishu

A BOY….A GIRL….

This is the post,which I thought 458 hours ago,this post contains some “disturbed” words and disturbed images which might disturb you,so please do make up your mind before you scroll down..thank you..-its vishu

Long long ago..a few billion years back,on a planet called Earth animals were really great in number,and the number of social animals were fewer,compared to the other animals. As time passed by,Man (not woman) took control of the planet Earth by either taming the animals or killing the animals using his mind,which was a weapon which made other beautiful,hard and paining weapons…..Thus he dominated other animals and marked his existence.

the early man

A few million years ago, this animal called Man by the process of mating began to reproduce explicitly…and the number of humans  increased on the planet…

Thousands of years ago,he began to build settlements,kingdoms and write books about anything and everything and there was nothing called “women” then!!

In the mean time,few people who called themselves as poets,wrote something which for the first time brought into the picture about women…and this really continued for a long long time…

Later, in the recent past…a word which was invented, I guess many years after the invention of language and the word is LUST..a few minutes later after its invention there was another word which was invented,to be precise,they are a pair of words…LOVE and HATE

love has lust


lust is genuine

                                                                                                             

love and hate are the couple



The usage of these words in those days limited themselves to kingdoms,enemies,warriors,GOD etc..

I mean the words LOVE and HATE were used by people along with the above words…until a poet who wrote a play,which changed the people and their thought process.. He brought out,the LOVE between a BOY and a GIRL(many people say and think that way). With his inspiration,many people started behaving that way and many writers wrote pages and pages… Millions of pages,were written which has the word LOVE on them…and the important thing is that, the LOVE written on those pages meant or described about the LOVE of (or) LOVE between a BOY and a GIRL !!!

If you think in a psychological  way, people who read these pages, have an impact on their mindset and they become hipsters!!!

Remember in the past, there was a male dominated society,now it is not the case due to something called

“women empowerment”

"women empowerment"

"women empowerment"


The number of hipsters grew in number and,the importance of women grew in society, in fact in the world,with the help of man and his LOVE!!

Now as you know the year is,2011….and the past is back!!!!!

Thinking what is the past??? I’ll tell you, as I’ve said the early people mated and there is nothing called a relationship,a permanent relationship then. Now,the same thing is befalling, to be precise it is going “ON”.

People now-a-days are very “mature”, very “intelligent”, very “hardworking”(especially in bed)

Let me tell you the meaning of MATURE in Y2K, it means there is no guarantee that you are the only mortal social body, who is going to fuck me or getting fucked up!! Any one can actually fuck me up or get fucked up,provided I’m attracted to him/her…So, grow up and don’t be foolish!!

a message

INTELLIGENCE now-a-days means, to play the fool around (a boy with a girl or a girl with a boy) so that they can get laid in bed…and after the “maleness” and “femaleness” become inert and calm,they say “bye-bye”

A boy is attracted to a girl.. a girl is attracted to a boy… this is zoology,to be precise physiology but not anthropology!! the attraction  is due to hormone development.These days the physical processes are going right, but the social processes are going from bad to worse!!

The attracted people

The attracted people

The value of and for relationships is going down,second by second…and this is causing some serious problems..

According to me, problems like AIDS shouldn’t be treated like personal problems,they are National problems and the reason for the encouraging rate of  A.I.D.S  is  the “good” relations(physical) which people are having..

it has no cure!!

The youth …have sex because..the animal nature in man and women has its peak in YOUTH…. This animal nature can be controlled,but people don’t want to…I guess they need some pleasure of opposite sex.

The social status, ignorance and excitement of boys and girls is making a free way to sex and disturbing the minds of  people, who actually brought them down here…

The slang which is with men all the years,now beginning to expand its vicinity to women!!

Girls need to keep their mouth shut,to be polite they need to control their tongue and mouth along with boys.

If that’s not the case,they’ll go to place where they can only sit,stand,sleep and cook.

I think Boys and Girls should understand the difference between LOVE and LUST… They should also realize that LOVE and the THOUGHT OF ‘BEING IN LOVE’ is fake and false, and the word LOVE is causing some serious damage to the economy of a nation and also to people personally…


                                   


The difference between love and lust is, lust in most cases is true and it is the root of love and it can survive without love, it is the sexual desire a person has towards a person of  same sex or opposite sex,people are making me write this really sucks!! (gay and lesbian kinda things)

And coming lo love it is always more of female world, because i think they are romantic,responsible and act in a better way than boys..They really control their desire,But not anymore..

To be in relation,people should have an idea of what is in their mind,they’ll mess up things…

messy relations

People are of two types,one is confused and the other is not confused…When I say not confused,every person do not have the relationship “clarity” cent percent,The confused people change their minds very often…

Please dont get confused with your relation and don’t mess things up…

I really feel there is no need to have a relation,  I will tell you why in my next post “superman”

A BEAUTIFUL SUICIDE

The one which you are going to read now..is a fiction material which is written,based on the events that took place  around me.

FICTION:

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It was a drowsy evening when it started raining and i was on bed peeping through my window,looking at a sparrow which was wounded..and trying to fly.After few minutes,when the rain got stronger and  the sparrow unable to bear the drops shooting it, fell down the tree,down into the water and was going with the flow.... i thought where would it go,with the flow and was looking at the sky which wore a black cloud dress along with lighting sparks..a real spectacular view..a shout!!! brought to me to this world,when...

sparrow which made us meet

The lightning along with me saw a girl, who was trying to pick the sparrow…Me being too lazy just watching her and the sparrow in her hand. But she made me run towards her as she was bleeding as a heavy stone rested on her leg,which was soft and smooth. I went near her,to help her. Took the stone placed it aside with a great effort,while watching the water around her turn red with her blood..without her permission took her in my arms bit carefully,took her to  my home.. placed her on my bed..

She was bleeding along with the little sparrow..her beautiful face filled with ocean of tears,for a moment i thought it was due to pain which she had..i came to know that I was wrong ,when she said “thank you for saving this sweet sparrow” , with a little smile on her face and it was lovely…after the rain repressed,along with her bleeding,she started feeling better along with me as i was worrying about her..

The rain was great, it just took things it got..the power lines started resting on roads as if they were sleeping ..very close to the roads..and the roads filled themselves with water..It was night,when i lighted a candle and went to her, who was in my room with her long curly hairs on my pillow..

I saw her in the light of the candle,for the first time when she was closing her eyes and her palm touching my hand..She was beautiful,very beautiful and soft with the dried tears on her face,which left their marks on her cheeks..I’m not willing to wake her up,just looking at her in the candle light..I touched her toe for the second time,after the first aid..I could still feel the warm red drops of her,which got  mixed along  with my tears for her..

After a few thousands of seconds…

she woke up,unable to move her leg touched me with her soft palm,and woke me up,while i was sleeping in my couch next to her..

I was lost in her,looking at her until she asked me about the sparrow,to which i replied it was with my mom who was looking after it.The candle lost itself in time,i told her to remain where she was and brought a new candle along with something for her to eat.. She asked me to have some light near her wounded leg,saw her leg with bandage and thanked me for that,ignoring my eyes which got stuck watching her beautiful lips..so pink..

The Next Day….

When the sun hit her back hard with his rays,she saw me on the couch sleeping,unable to move called my name,so sweetly that made me awake,and made me to come at her,when she asked me looking into my eyes, to drop her in her house, i just took her in my arms to the car and then to her place and gave the sparrow,which made me find her…

after few months….

she called me and said ” I wana meet you,share with you something”,and we met…after a long silence,

she said “my parents died a week ago”,  I was not in a state  to respond.. after a minute,looking into her blue eyes, i uttered a stammer “how??”

she had her head down..looking into the pond,said “it was an accident,and now she was an orphan”

the pond where we met

As those words  struck me,i took her to my mom,and said what she said to me..as my mother asked to stay her along with us for a few days,we went to her house,where she arranged her things with difficulty and her hairs moving on her face touching her lips..she looked amazing … We had our dinner and she slept with my mom and I was very happy for her…she in my house!!!

The autumn arrived..and one perfect morning,when the sun was friendly with the trees and other plants,the sunlight and the leaves of few trees turned to a golden yellow..I’m going home from the park i turned back if she is alive or not… she is hung to a tree, I still remember the wounded leg,which had a scar on it, was wavering when i was running for her.. along with cool breeze in the deserted garden..

deserted garden

The day before which she committed suicide,she said things which made me  realize the pain in her, and my thoughts of making her happy were just too small…when she said she wants to die,and needed help, my hands were touching her cheeks  harder and faster with a force in them…after I slapped her,she stayed silent for  a minute and said ” please help me..I wana go to my parents” . I asked her what is the reason for her to die..

she said ” I love my parents,they are not here,then why should I be here….” ..her voice was soundless when she said these words… I asked her why can’t she stay with my family, she didn’t answer that question..and left the room..

She woke me up early in the morning, gave a letter to me and took me to garden far from the neighborhood…closed my eyes, the garden was beautiful,very calm..I thought for a moment I can propose her,and tell her that I care for her… After closing my eyes,she came to my ear,I can feel her breath and whispered in my ear “open the letter,only when you hear my voice,and you should read the letter before coming to me…”,saying this she took an oath.

I caught her by hand,and kissed her lips,for which she said ” I love you” and left me..and I was waiting for her sweet voice…

But I never heard her voice,I opened my eyes and I could see my beauty far away…hung her herself to a tree..I ran towards her,but her legs stopped moving along with her heart…another letter fell from her hand along with leaves of the tree and got wet in my tears,

the letter said ” I love you..I love my parents,yesterday night i thought of you a billion times and couldn’t come to this place leaving you,I want to see you for the last time..This is the place where my  parents bought me every autumn.but this autumn you bought me here..I want you take care of your parents,and never leave them…I couldn’t live my life without my parents,and baby please don’t try to save me..and this is the only gift I want from you..and leave me in this place,this is my favorite place..in the whole world…love you..”

After reading this,i just touched her toes and was crying like hell…kissing her toes,touching the scar..She made me think,again and again..I couldn’t leave the place ,but after all I love her,and I’ll do what she said to me,what she asked me to do…

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 ”All I want to say is suicidal tendency,is the way of liberation of yourself from the pain…All of us have an aim or a target,a crush and parents..Please do remember when you want to die for your crush,you’ll taking your life along with your parents lives!!

When you know your aim is dead realize that you are dead, when your parents are dead……you live for their dreams and do not die!! ” -  its vishu

                              

fright,feeling,fuck

It is my second post in word press.. I did  not think word press will have an article like this..I request the word press managers to look into this article before letting this words going to the web world.

For the person reading this…this is an article which has strong language,and reality so i advice you to mentally prepare for it..thank you

In this post i’d like to tell you about things which happen everywhere in the world,at each and every place each living organism experiences these.

Coming to the point, the title of the post fright, feeling,fuck.  If you take a bit closer look at the words, you may find that they can be linked with some emotion and thought.  You being frightened of something is an emotion which is processed from the thought that you tend to be afraid of something. All you need to understand is that you will be frightened when you feel you cannot get the thing you want or you may be physically/mentally treated in a bad way(harassment). Other than that there is no other reason for a person to be afraid of something.

Feeling- this is something which every person has,and should have. It is something which is implanted by default. It is not possible to remove it,we can only vary your feelings but cannot remove them. I feel the nature is symmetric and has simple answers YES and NO to every question. But it is the man who complicate things to the extremes and try to experiment with each and everything he has.

Relationships are made from and by feelings like the electronic goods (mostly) which have the tag ‘ MADE IN CHINA’. But the point is that every feeling you actually develop will have its roots from the relation itself.

Fuck- The most beautiful and admirable word i’ve never met in English language. I actually hated this word,when i’m a stupid boy when i began to learn the things on my own, I found this is the word which is necessary to express many of my emotions and feelings. So i actually fell in love with this word and started to learn the meaning of this very word and found that i’m stuck many miles away from  my mind and began to enjoy life with this word.

With a plate and chicken with some drink in the front,i’m writing these words because im in love with words than food..i dono why..

LOVE is a word which has the largest number of meanings.In those meanings you find 90% related to attraction,romance. To me i’m comfortable with LUST than LOVE,FUCK than the formal word for it.

The reason for it is I speak my reality,of course many people ‘s reality.. According to me LUST is genuine than LOVE.. LOVE has LUST but LUST doesn’t have love in it..that is what i feel.. Coming to the EMOTION of FUCK I feel one should realize it is word with a lot emotion and originality in it. From the movies that I saw, i’ll tell you fact(fact according to me) there can be many reasons to smile,but when you cry you have really very limited reasons which are true absolutely,and no questions in it.  So have faith in pain!!!! it is reality and in fact it is the only reality.

Now let me tell you the link between these words.

You see a girl/boy (im not talking about gay/lesbian kinda people,take the case as straight) when you like them physically,this is what happens all cases. You have lust on them,this is due to the fact that opposite poles attract. When you really want to fuck ‘em up, when you have this kinda mind state you actually tend to develop a relation. You’ll encourage your mind for all f*kin ideas to really f*ck or get f*cked. It is my friend who actually said to me about the ‘wild’ nature of women. I know the ‘wild’ nature of man. So now from the feeling called LUST you developed some emotional thought called FUCK!!


Now the story is more interesting,just think if the person you thinking fucking also thinks of you,and fuck what will be the result, it is something called FRIGHT…AFRAID.. According  to me,to support your fucking thought you should be bold!! But I don’t find that in many. There may be reasons for it(may be HIV is one reason) . The fright for parents in the eastern countries..i guess the reason why people are not able to enjoy life. FUCK & FORGET is one policy or idea which many people like but are afraid to actually put it into practice.

When people decide to live together, they should check their genital status too…i guess the main reason and the climax of love..

parents,  children,   responsibilities,   love,   lust,   fuck,   fright,   emotions,   pressure,   suicidal tendency fear of being rejected,   psychological disorders,   death,   heaven intercourse,   pain,   satisfaction are all related.


I wana have a full stop as large as possible as deep as possible to avoid these…  lets have an “ANTI EMOTION” which can control our emotion!!!!