The following is a work of fiction which is very personal to me. The intention of presenting to you is to share my story with you. I request you do not tell the story to anyone who is near and dear to you as it might…

Timmy and Jimmy are 2 loners who are looking after their family doing what they hate everyday, every hour, every minute. Timmy and Jimmy hate the day as they have to do something they don’t like. They hate the night as they look after their family. Timmy and Jimmy hate their lives and always have count the number of sins they can count. They don’t realize that hating someone or something is also a sin. They are us, humans. Just like we don’t realize what we did until it hurts us. They lead their life this way for 20 years. Now they are 40. Their family size shrunk from 3 to 1 as their parents died finally. The money they spent on their parents treatment was lost according to them. They got promoted in their jobs and was earning much more than they want. As they were not married in their 30’s nobody in their close circles or from their community were helping them get married. Their community decides certain things. Their parents always tried to tell them to follow the community rules which they didn’t as a result in the community’s perspective they are suffering. To them they are already dead 20 years ago.

The problem with these guys is they are able to see, hear and feel what others around do. Their horror comes from their ability to hate themselves as they cannot be a part of the community.

Now on their 40th birthday, they make a resolution. The resolution note goes something like this

Do you really know why you were born? How do you feel when do what you hate? How does it feel when you are controlled by your surroundings? Why do you always try to be happy? Why do you care about something you love? Why should you define suffering? Why do you compare ? Why can’t we perceive the things which we can’t perceive? Is desire a mandate? Why do you bombard your brain station with a train of thoughts? Is it necessary that you have to live? What is life? Which beyond and beneath life? What is your value  system’s starting point? How do you define your tipping point? What if you are deprive yourself ? Can you help yourself by being happy? Who are you? why are you like the way you are?

We will have to find answers to these questions before we die!!